crap day

Today was definitely not my best day. Today, for the first time, I cried at the office. I just felt like giving up and throwing everything away! I partly blame the disorganized pass-on's. But not totally. I guess I do not ENJOY my job as much as I hoped I would. I was so tempted to resign right there and then, but that would make me look like a person who gives up too easily. In fact, I am not, as long as the job makes me feel fulfilled. AND compensation, I KNOW, means a lot too. However high your responsibility is, that should also match your compensation. I mean, in the first place, I decided to work because I needed to be compensated JUSTLY. But whatever.

I do not know how to face the rest of the days anymore. I do not know how long my patience will last. I want to be able to do something I love but the problem is, the companies who offer those dreams are difficult to get in to. I have so many ambitions I want to fulfill and I want to do it while I am still young! My parents support it, i know. But I can't leave them alone either. I wish i can bring them with me, but they also have a life here.. Agh. I do not know why I turned into a complicated person. I hate the present me. I hate being miserable all the time, but I can't help it!

I do not know what the future holds.. But I know God will lead me to the right place.