I hate how life keeps being unfair and how your life turns out from one simple decision you make.
I have been to college and I actually finished university life.
I took up BS Business Administration major in Marketing..
but
it never became my interest at all. That was the
only way I could live elsewhere and live a different life, something new and exciting!
Sure, I had fun during college. I met a lot of people there. Different types of people actually.
I love my girls. I met them from my first day in the lovely city and we still keep in touch up til now.
They surely made my stay in college worth it and bearable.
Met users too. People who just use you and throw you away once they don't need your services anymore. so much more!
Marketing ain't my thing. Advertising, that is what I want to pursue. That's what I want to see myself doing for a long time. Sitting in an office, own office, scheduling advertisements, promotions for big companies and etc. But sadly, advertising companies won't hire you unless you took up Advertising in college.
One simple wrong turn makes a huge difference. Now, I can't even see myself in the advertising field anymore. 4 years make a great difference. It's not that I was incompetent to make it to the course, but I couldn't find people to support me in pursuing my dream.
I feel as though I am trapped and I just have no where else to go to. I dream on going out of this city and living independently, but I can't. People have been planning on how my life goes on, but this isn't how it's supposed to be. I should be planning my life and people should be supporting me rather than putting me down and being so inconsistent.
I don't blame God for making my life turn out this way, but I do wish and pray that He could make things go in a path and make me understand why I am on this path and why my life is not how i see it anymore.
I see myself as the middle child. and I never disagree with the middle child syndrome theory that psychologists have been talking about.
